We’re One

“Do you not know that your bodies are members of Christ? Shall I then take the members of Christ and make them members of a prostitute? Never! Or do you not know that he who is joined to a prostitute becomes one body with her? For, as it is written, “The two will become one flesh.” BUT he who JOINS himself with Christ is one with Him in spirit .”
1 Corinthians 6:15-17

I used to read the Bible and the words harlot, prostitute, seductress and adulteress women would jump off the page, because those words best described my life at the time. Reading it made me feel more condemned and unworthy than I already did. But then the Lord started pointing out scriptures like this one and I began taking Him up on His offers. I joined myself with Christ and now I am one with Him in Spirit!

You and I have to do OUR PART and the Lord does the rest!

Brand New

Trying to be strong, I kissed my boys goodbye and watched them walk towards the parking lot with their grandparents. My heart sank, as hot tears streamed down my face. “Here’s to you boys. I’m doing this for you, because you deserve it.” I softly whispered to myself.

As I turned around, the front office lady firmly held onto both of my shoulders, looked deep in my eyes almost to peer into my soul and said “Michelle, I’m so glad you’re here! You are making the right decision. I don’t care who you WERE before you walked through this doorway, I don’t care what label you HAD out there or what people HAVE said about you! God says you are a NEW CREATION, old things pass away and behold a NEW CREATION,” as she pointed to the threshold of the doorway. Tears now pouring from my eyes and down my neck, as I sobbed in this strangers embrace…

I didn’t understand at the time what those words REALLY meant, but they rang in my ears and in my heart for the next year and a half, as I completed drug rehab. Her belief in the word of God and the conviction in her eyes, as she boldly proclaimed the truth, gave me the assurance that I was in the right place at the right time.

Fast forward 7 1/2 years, I now live a brand new life. That scripture used to be just words that someone else believed, but now they are my reality.

Therefore, if anyone is IN Christ, he is a NEW creation; the old has gone, the NEW has come! 2 Corinthians 5:17

White as Snow

How is someone with a past like mine, able to walk in purity presently? The short answer: forgiveness.

The Lord does not hold my past against me or over me anymore. He paid the price for my sins-and I am not responsible to pay Him back. It was a free gift…all I did was accept it. In return, He set me free from the bondage of addiction, shame, guilt and mental illnesses. The choices from my past, no longer define me. I have been made new!

“Come now, let us reason together,” says the LORD. “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.” – Isaiah 1:18

With God ALL things are possible!

In our society we are raised to be strong independent women, but the Lord wants to re-raise us to be interdependent with Him. He says “WITH God all things are possible.” It’s ALL about a relationship with the Lord! My ability to live clean, sober and passionately live for Jesus like I do is a direct result of my relationship with Him!

“Apart from Him you can do nothing”…nothing with eternal value that is. If you have been living FOR Him, instead of WITH Him….please stop. It’s much easier and more fulfilling to live life WITH Him!

Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26

“Follow me” as I follow Christ!

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For those of you who don’t know me, my name is Michelle E. Caswell. I’m extremely happily married to an awesome man, we have four beautiful children between the two of us, three of which are teenagers! I live such a blessed life today-a life I always dreamed of, but thought was impossible for a girl like me.

God has done an amazing work in my life. After many years on a destructive path, the Lord placed my feet on a new path 7 ½ years ago.  He healed, redeemed and restored me from that of a promiscuous drug addict to a life fully committed to pointing others to the restoration I’ve found in Him-to bridge the gap and bring the good news to those who are hurting.

I’m so excited to officially announce that I have started a non-profit ministry called “Purely His!” Our desire is to equip the church to minister to women who seek to live a new life for the Lord, but are still struggling. We’ll be pointing her to the Truth that will set her free from anything that stands in her way of true freedom, as we commit to walking through life with her.

Watch my life and this ministry unfold, as He continues “writing History through my story.” To begin, I will be blogging my life experiences and the progress of Purely His. I promise to keep it real by “dropping my mask” for the world to see! You can expect my blogs to come out on Mondays at noon and mini posts throughout the week, they will be raw, full of hope, encouragement and conviction. My greatest desire is that through this blog you will have hope for yourself, a family member that is “too far gone” or for the newcomer in your church. Please also share it with others who need encouragement.

“Follow me” as I follow Christ!

The Night My Virginity Was Restored!

 

Prior to our wedding night on December 16th, 2012 I had never made love. It was THE BEST night of my life! I had always thought that “making love” meant going slow, but that term was redefined for me that night. I was so…very, very wrong!  One might assume that with a sexual past like mine I would have a solid understanding of what “making love” consisted of, however this path was one I had never walked before…I had nothing to compare this to.  For the first time I was genuinely loved for the real me, not just my body or how I performed. It was the fruition of our real love for each other.

We drove to our hotel after the reception was over, strolled into the lobby with our luggage rolling behind us when I started cracking up. My laugh must have been contagious, because he looked over at me and started laughing too. “What are you laughing about?” He chuckled. I giggled and nervously replied “we’re married, we’re in the lobby of OUR hotel, and we’re about to go up to OUR room?!”

A few days before the wedding, he asked me “Michelle, what would you think about waiting until we arrive in Hawaii to consummate our marriage?” “ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I have WAITED 6 YEARS, 9 MONTHS and 9 DAYS to have sex!” Actually that’s not what I said, but it was what I thought! I reluctantly agreed after he shared his reasons with me.

Actually, it was kind of nice to have the pressure of the “wedding night” expectations relieved. However, the idea of being unclothed in front of each other for the first time brought anxiety on us both.

Meanwhile, back at the honeymoon suite…I took a deep breath and thought to myself…I AM SO NERVOUS!!! We were standing face to face, well more like face to chest (he’s a foot taller than me) when the time had come to drop my dress, so I mustered up the courage and just did it. As my dress and his jaw dropped simultaneously to the floor, I instinctively rushed to cover my eyes. I laughed uncontrollably-my hands absolutely glued to my face! My brand new husband, recovering from shock, said “WOW, Michelle you are so beautiful” as he nervously checked out his new bride. His gentle way eventually gave me the courage to uncover my face.

That was the night I had looked forward to, yet greatly feared, for many years! “What if I get triggered and my addiction returns?” Here’s the crazy part…I felt like an innocent bride, one that had never been touched by a man. I actually felt more pure that night than I did when I was thirteen. That was the moment I KNEW, without a doubt, that God had truly healed me!

Fast forward: we didn’t wait till Hawaii!!!

So how does a woman who has “crossed the line of no return” have her virginity restored? Continue to “follow me” as I blog the details of how this miracle happened for me and can happen for you or someone you love.CRW_7794[lux]

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